the color of loneliness...

i haven't been sleeping well lately... 

it's gradually been getting harder to fall asleep.

and then when i finally am asleep it's hard to stay asleep.

i don't know why, but my mind has been running overtime. 24/7... i can't make sense of what's going on inside my head. it's just senseless chatter... static noise... it's nothing in particular. at least i don't think so...

i can't really make any sense of it. just simply background noise... i kind of start feeling like i'm in a large crowd sometimes.

during the day it's usually rather comfortable. but it's at night when i'm trying to sleep that's the problem. it's much easier to just stay awake and ignore it. i really don't know what it is. i try to pay attention to it. but it's still just more radio static... maybe it's my own mind making noise so that i don't feel lonely anymore. i don't know. i'm getting pretty tired of it though. it's not comforting anymore... it's just a nuisance now.